me, Mr. Gigadibs. No deprecation—nay, I beg you, sir! Beside 't is our engagement: don't you know, I promised, if you'd watch a dinner out, We'd see truth dawn together?—truth that peeps Over the glasses' edge when dinner's done, And body gets its sop and holds its noise And leaves soul free a little. Now's the time: 20 Truth's break of day! You do despise me then. And if I say, "despise me"—never fear! 1 know you do not in a certain sense— Not in my arm-chair, for example: here, I well imagine you respect my place ([Status, entourage], worldly circumstance) Quite to its value—very much indeed: —Are up to the protesting eyes of you In pride at being seated here for once— You'll turn it to such capital account! 30 When somebody, through years and years to come, Hints of the bishop—names me—that's enough: "Blougram? I knew him"—(into it you slide) "Dined with him once, a Corpus Christi Day, All alone, we two; he's a clever man: And after dinner—why, the wine you know— Oh, there was wine, and good!—what with the wine . . . 'Faith, we began upon all sorts of talk! He's no bad fellow, Blougram; he had seen Something of mine he relished, some review: 40 He's quite above their humbug in his heart, Half-said as much, indeed—the thing's his trade. I warrant, Blougram 's sceptical at times: How otherwise? I liked him, I confess!" [Che che], my dear sir, as we say at Rome, Don't you protest now! It's fair give and take; You have had your turn and spoken your home-truths: The hand's mine now, and here you follow suit. Thus much conceded, still the first fact stays— You do despise me; your ideal of life 50 Is not the bishop's: you would not be I. You would like better to be Goethe, now, Or Buonaparte, or, bless me, lower still, Count D'Orsay—so you did what you preferred, Spoke as you thought, and, as you cannot help, Believed or disbelieved, no matter what, So long as on that point, whate'er it was, You loosed your mind, were whole and sole yourself. —That, my ideal never can include, Upon that element of truth and worth 60 Never be based! for say they make me Pope— (They can't—suppose it for our argument!) Why, there I'm at my tether's end, I've reached My height, and not a height which pleases you: An unbelieving Pope won't do, you say. It's like those eerie stories nurses tell, Of how some actor on a stage played Death, With pasteboard crown, sham orb and tinselled dart, And called himself
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