must know, my dear," she said, from her pillows, "that I have your Paisley shawl."     

       I was breathless. "I thought that, perhaps"—I stumbled.     

       "It was raining that night," she said in her soft, delicate voice. "I have had it dried and pressed. It is not hurt. I thought you would not mind,"       she concluded.     

       "It does not matter at all—not in the least," I said unhappily.     

       I am quite sure now that she meant me to speak then. I can recall the way       she fixed her eyes on me, serene and expectant. She was waiting. But to save my life I could not. And she did not. Had she gone as far as she had the strength to go? Or was this again one of those curious pacts of hers—if I spoke or was silent, it was to be?     

       I do not know.     

       I do know that we were both silent and that at last, with a quick breath, she reached out and thumped on the floor with a cane that stood beside the bed until a girl came running up from below stairs.     

       "Get the shawl, Fanny, dear," said Miss Emily, "and wrap it up for Miss Blakiston."     

       I wanted desperately, while the girl left the room to obey, to say something helpful, something reassuring. But I could not. My voice failed me. And Miss Emily did not give me another opportunity. She thanked me rather formally for the flowers I had brought from her garden, and let me go at last with the parcel under my arm, without further reference to it. The situation was incredible.     

       Somehow I had the feeling that Miss Emily would never reopen the subject       again. She had given me my chance, at who knows what cost, and I had not taken it. There had been something in her good-by—I can not find words for it, but it was perhaps a finality, an effect of a closed door—that I felt without being able to analyze.     

       I walked back to the house, refusing the offices of Mr. Staley, who met me on the road. I needed to think. But thinking took me nowhere. Only one conclusion stood out as a result of a mile and a half of mental struggle. Something must be done. Miss Emily ought to be helped. She was under a strain that was killing her.     

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