First to verge upward to a man, These thoughts were mine—to dwell alone, My spirit on its lordly throne, Hating the vain stir, fierce and loud, The din of the tumultuous crowd; And how I thought to arm my soul, And stablish it in self-controul; And said I would obey the right, And would be strong in wisdom’s might, And bow unto mine own heart’s law, And keep my heart from speck or flaw, That in its mirror I might find A reflex of the Eternal mind, A glass to give me back the truth— And how before me from my youth A phantom ever on the wing, Appearing now, now vanishing,{18} {18} Had flitted, looking out from shrine, From painting, or from work divine