I sometimes fancy that in my condition if I had less opposition and more society and stimulus—but John says the very worst thing I can do is to think about my condition, and I confess it always makes me feel bad. 

 So I will let it alone and talk about the house. 

 The most beautiful place! It is quite alone, standing well back from the road, quite three miles from the village. It makes me think of English places that you read about, for there are hedges and walls and gates that lock, and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people. 

 There is a delicious garden! I never saw such a garden—large and shady, full of box-bordered paths, and lined with long grape-covered arbors with seats under them. 

 There were greenhouses, too, but they are all broken now. 

 There was some legal trouble, I believe, something about the heirs and co-heirs; anyhow, the place has been empty for years. 

 That spoils my ghostliness, I am afraid; but I don’t care—there is something strange about the house—I can feel it. 

 I even said so to John one moonlight evening, but he said what I felt was a draught, and shut the window. 

 I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I’m sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think it is due to this nervous condition. 

 But John says if I feel so I shall neglect proper self-control; so I take pains to control myself,—before him, at least,—and that makes me very tired. 

 I don’t like our room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on the piazza and had roses all over the window, and such pretty old-fashioned chintz hangings! but John would not hear of it. 

 He said there was only one window and not room for two beds, and no near room for him if he took another. 

 He is very careful and loving, and hardly lets me stir without special direction. 

 I have a schedule prescription for each hour in the day; he takes all care from me, and so I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more. 

 He said we came here solely on my account, that I was to have perfect rest and all the air I could get. “Your exercise depends on your strength, my dear,” said he, “and your food somewhat on your appetite; but air you can 

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